I Am

I Am

I am not my illnesses.
I am not what happened to me.

I am the smiling soul that I feel
in the moments where I feel free.

I am not the things I like.
I am not the things I love.

I am not what I say when I’m angry.
I am not what I say when I’m sad.
I am not what I say when drunk.

I am not how I feel.
I am not my pain.

I am not the expectations of my family.
I am not the expectations of my friends.

I am not the expectations of my community.
I am not the expectations of my employers.

I am not the expectations of society.

I am human. I am imperfect.

I expect nothing of myself except to be kind.

I am me.

And that is all I can ever hope to be.

Flaws and all, I choose to still stand tall,
even as the winds of life try to blow me down,
and I cry out to whoever will listen to such sounds.

I can choose to cling to joy and hope right now.

I can choose to wear a smile and not a frown.

I can choose to cry when I need to let it out.

I can choose to laugh instead of shout.

But I know sometimes, it’s just best to feel
even when all you feel is down
with the mask of a clown.

Because clouds, as they do,
will pass over me and you.

A better tomorrow is waiting, too.

D.L. Lang
D.L. Lang
D.L. Lang of Vallejo, CA is the author of five full length poetry collections, including 2016's Poet Loiterer which Kirkus Reviews described as containing "Free-spirited ideals couched in fairly infectious rhymes." She also released her debut spoken word album entitled Happy Accidents.
Lang won Best of Show in Poetry in 2015, and Reserve Best of Show in 2016 at the Solano County Fair. Lang performs at poetry open mics around the Bay Area, including regularly at the Hub as a part of Poetry by the Bay, and was also a featured act at the inaugural Vallejo Man March.

Author: D.L. Lang

D.L. Lang of Vallejo, CA is the author of five full length poetry collections, including 2016's Poet Loiterer which Kirkus Reviews described as containing "Free-spirited ideals couched in fairly infectious rhymes." She also released her debut spoken word album entitled Happy Accidents. Lang won Best of Show in Poetry in 2015, and Reserve Best of Show in 2016 at the Solano County Fair. Lang performs at poetry open mics around the Bay Area, including regularly at the Hub as a part of Poetry by the Bay, and was also a featured act at the inaugural Vallejo Man March.